Posts tagged ‘exhaustion’

August 11, 2011

Visiting hours

by Living with RSD: what comes next?

Some people visit their long, lost loved ones, sharing conversation, coffee and well wishes. They find comfort in the love that withstands the test of time. Like a favorite old book, you can pick it up at any point in time and fall in love all over again.

Some people spend hours with these loved ones. I visit my shoes. I was feeling a little down tonight, so I went into my shoe closet to visit my adored ones. They were a little dusty in need of some TLC. There was a method to my madness. I started out with my shoe closet. I went to the summer flats at first. These were my most recent rejects. They looked a little sad. No summer parties, or walks through the parks. Just a storage bag to hold them all. They barely saw the light of day.

I went over to my next set of forgotten friends…the winter boots. Now, I packed these up a long time ago as well, so they were a little dusty. But, I had also double bagged them and put them in a storage box. I sat on the floor and caressed the soft suede of the boot. I did refrain from smelling them, but it was tempting. I love the smell of distressed leather. I wanted to spend more time with them, but I had my eyes set on something else.

Now, day to day shoes I will store in bags and boxes because it’s easier on the space. But my favorite friends stay in their original boxes. Lined up on shelves, OCD style from largest to smallest. I dusted off the boxes, because they were dusty, and ran my fingers over the labels. I can’t say that I’m really into the labels as much as the quality. After all…those 4 inch heels can really tear up your feet. Today, I couldn’t open the boxes. I simply said hello to my old friends. But, there was one pair that I needed to visit.

I went into my clothes closet, where I have some overflow. I pulled out the very pair that I wore almost a year ago when I broke my foot. Amazingly, they didn’t break. I didn’t put them on”. But, I do believe that time will come soon.

I do visit the old friends every now and then. I’m coming to the end of my time in tennis shoes. I don’t know what my PT has in mind. I keep showing her pics of the fall boots. Surely, there are more options!

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